Happy Independance Day

Kinda Creepy but in a Good Way

I was reading some old posts (do you ever do that ?) and came across this one. So I read it and thought about how sad it was the I couldn’t say good bye. I no sooner thought that then Lionel Richies’ Three Times a Lady came on the radio.

Wow. Coincidence? It made me feel better anyway and I guess that is all that really matters

I'm Famous...Well Almost

So here is my 15 minutes in black and white! (with a 5 year old picture...it's all I had when I filled out the survey!)

I am the reader of the day over at Pop Candy. See the post here. (Just click the highlighted word, RM)

This so totally makes me day! LOL

Jillian, The Bachelorette

I swore I wasn’t going to watch it. Especially after the shenanigans they pulled last season. But I caved. I have a friend at work who has been keeping me updated. And she made me do it. You can watch online here.

I sat down last night to watch the drama when Jake came back to tell Jillian that Wes had a girlfriend. Forget the girlfriend, within 5 minutes I felt like I needed to take a shower because this guy is way sleazy. It is so obvious that he is not there for Jillian. And she is blind to the entire thing. I realize that some of it may be editing but I just don’t like him.

And who the hell is this Ed character? Obviously I have not been watching so I don’t know all the ins and outs (forgive the pun) of the situation but come one people. Two in one night? What is this…make up the rules as we go along?

I felt sorry for the twin, what ever his name was but he was too young. And then Jesse’s brother was way hotter than he was. I wanted him to put his hair back in a pony tail. Woof! I was sorry to see Jesse go though. He seemed like a really nice guy.

As for the four that are left, I approve of all but one…Wes. Kiptyn and Reid are my two favorites right now and I guess Ed can stay.

Man, I am so hooked again.

It’s Monday

I feel like I am getting hit from all sides today. First the thing with RM and his sister and now things at work. I was asked specifically to do something. I did it and now that we are getting push back…well you can probably figure out who is getting the blame. It’s like everyone forgets what they said and then when the shit starts to roll it rolls all the way to the bottom. I am going to have to ask everyone to put things in writing. I am tired of getting bitten.

It doesn’t help that I am still trying to get off the happy pills and I am willing to bet that is where this is coming from. I heeded the advice from my lady friends but I want to see if I can do it (There are some benefits. I have already noticed that the carb cravings have lessened significantly). If I need them, trust me I will go back on them. There are always side effects when you are ramping up on the drugs and when you are stepping off. I had gotten off of them completely then Shaun took his life and I went right back on them. Under doctors orders I went full strength, when I started back.

I originally had taken them in my early 20's for a short while. Then started taking them again in November of 1999 after being off of them for about 10 years. I was getting a divorce and before things got bad, I wanted to make sure that I was armed against the funk. The last time I tried was in 2004 and now I am trying again. So no one is allowed to die or leave me until I am off of them. (Like I can control the Universe and God’s will)

I will say at least I am still in good humor. I keep cracking myself up. I think along with the curb of the carb cravings, my personal filter is leaking, at least in my head. If I end up speaking what I think then…well I think you get the picture.

Juniper and Cedar pollens are prominent in this area right now and when my allergies bother me, well, I don’t feel good. So I have a sore throat, I am horse and I am very sleepy. I have had these symptoms ever since I was a kid.

It’s okay. And I know I’ll be okay. Thanks for all your kind words!

Who needs their mother...

when they can send themselves on a guilt trip.

My Catholic upbringing is kicking in full force.

Oy!

Tonight on Dog TV

The scene out my patio door. There were two right before I snapped the picture. The other one is hiding in the bush.

Crimes and Misdemeanors

I talked to RM today. Apparently he has had a couple of rows with his sister since she has come to town.

A couple of things struck me as he was relaying the story.

• He said his sister is very jealous of me.
• He said that she was complaining because he was always taking my side
• And she was upset by an e-mail that I sent.
• She also threw his niece's communion in his face a couple of times.
  

In hind sight, I should not of sent the e-mail. I thought that I was helping but in truth I should have just kept my nose out of it. Lesson learned.

As far as taking my side, I didn't know that LW and I were on opposite sides for RM to take. However, I firmly believe that when in a relationship that you should always tend to your house first and your extended family second knowing that there are exceptions to every rule. I hope that makes sense. And in part that may be why she is jealous.

I know that my sils were jealous of me when my brothers got married. Bubby's wife and I have come to a good place after many years. As far as the BWOB's x, well she is an x and no longer of consequence. I did feel bad when at times I would call one brother or the otherr in the early years and say "when you have time...." and they would rush over. As Bubby's wife would say, not good form. I am seeing now how hard it is for guys to juggle the women in their lives.

I know that the last couple times I have seen LW and her family she has made comments about how I touch RM all the time. We were at one of his niece's soccer games and as I would pass him on the side lines, I would run my hand along his back or squeeze his hand. The last time we went out to eat with them, as we were looking at the menu, I absent mindedly (is that a word?) rubbed his back. At the soccer game her comment was "Staking your territory?" Apparently, one of her "friends" had her eye on RM for her daughter. Then the next trip, at the restaurant, she asked me why I had to touch him all the time. Truth is I don't realize I do it. I am a very huggy/touchy type person. Always have been. Touching calms me. Grounds me. I think RM feels the same. He has never complained.

RM and I have been talking a lot about happiness. One thing that he always says is "I just try to make everyone happy." I have told him repeatedly that the only person he needs to worry about is himself first and me second and if by making himself happy he makes me happy then that is a huge bonus. This time around RM and I have accepted each other worts and all. We talk about the things that bug us and we have intentionally left her out of the relationship because she likes to create drama. Lots of drama.

Lastly, LW knew in Jan that we had made plans to go to New Mexico the weekend of her daughter's communion. Then she was going to change it to the weekend of my birthday and then magically it was set back to the original weekend. We had made our plans before she did and I couldn't change my vacation from work so we had to go with what we had. Anyway, we knew at that time she was going to hold it against us and it has taken 3 months but LW came through as we knew she would.

I cannot for the life of me think why she is jealous of me. I don't have anything to be jealous of. I have said before that jealousy is not an emotion that I have very often. So I don't understand when people are jealous of me. Its happened before and I am sure that it will happen again. I don't get it.

So here I am on a Saturday night, drinking a beer and hammering words into this blog and I am trying to feel like it is not my fault. RM has assured me that I did not cause any of the "discussions" that he and his sister have had. I apologized anyway. I don't want to be the reason he is not getting along with his sister. He again assured me it wasn't me. So I will believe him and put things into perspective.

*sigh*

What a weird week for Pop Culture

First, Ed McMahon passes away, then Farah Fawcett this morning and now Michael Jackson.

Its really sad that all my childhood icons are passing away

Who hasn't tried to moon walk if you are over the age of 40? I remember that I did a killer impression of the Thriller dance when I was in college. It is one of my favorite scene's in 13 going on 30.




Everyone had Farah Fawcett hair when I was in Jr. High. And with that damn poster us chubby girls never had a chance. I was short, round and dark headed (Huh, I still am!). She was everything I wasn't. She was the first girl that I was envious of. on the other hand, She was a heck of an actress with numerous award nominations under her belt and she was the Six Million Dollar Man's husband.



And who could forget "Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeres Johhhhhny! It was sad that he was in such disrepair toward the end. No one plans to be in financial trouble. I guess I can stop waiting for him to show up at my door with my million dollar check.








Good bye old friends. We'll miss you. Tell Captain Kangaroo I said hi!

Found in my Inbox

If you saw ME in a police car what would you think I got arrested for?

Have some fun and leave your answers in the comments.